Life is short
It’s always scared me
Ugly crying they call it
Like being sick in India
Just let go
Your body knows
You never know
What hits the pain button
A mountain hut
In an old photograph
We never went
We’ll never go
You leave not just absence
But also “why?”
Why, oh why?
It’s hard not to be angry
Weren’t we enough?
Weren’t we all worth it?
I know, I know
But just for a minute
Let’s pretend I don’t
This isn’t fair
It hurts too much
Feels like a betrayal
So I’ll shed more tears
On your breakup with life
I’ll mourn your lost years
Our friendship cut short
Your plans and your dreams
The love you gave and we gave you
I’ll look to the stars
They say you are there
I see only fire
And darkness between
I list my regrets
Search vainly for sleep
Life is too short
Why didn’t I call
For one extra memory
Words that might have soothed
Though I may not have known
Did you know back then?
Did you say your goodbyes
Without us noticing
Or did you leave in a hurry
Ghost the party
Because it couldn’t wait anymore
You just had to escape
I’m sorry I missed it
We all are, if only you knew
We couldn’t have fixed it
I know, I know
But it still leaves me baffled
You had no other way
So I’ll go through my short life
Urgency renewed
Our clocks are all ticking
Hands drained of power
I’ll cry in the mountains
And wish you were there.