Today I’m finally feeling “well enough” to try and blog, after five days of fever. This is the third time I’m ill since mid-November. As I’m sick (!) of lying around, doing puzzles and watching TV series, and I don’t really feel up to much, I figured I could try and chronicle this – for science. So don’t expect anything really exciting from this post. My neurones are still reconfiguring.
It’s not impossible my first illness mid-November was covid, come to think of it. It could explain the two next back-to-back bouts. It might also be that my poor immune system is feeling down in the dumps after Monique’s death and the difficult times that have been following for me.
Illness 1
Late in the evening of November 14th I was suddenly hit with an awful sore throat. The last time that happened was in early July 2022 when I got covid. Why didn’t I think it was covid this time? The next morning, aside from the sore throat, I felt “fine”. Went to work the two next days with a mask and painkillers, but I didn’t seem to have any fever.
I remember being surprised at how functional I was, because usually, as soon as I come down with any kind of cold I feel like utter crap. Here, my throat was hurting, but I felt “generally OK”.
On the 16th however, I had a very strange episode of motion sickness. On the train back home to work I felt so nauseous I thought my midday sandwich was to blame. I got home, ate something felt better, took the car to drive to my dad’s where I was expected for dinner. After 10 or 15 minutes driving, I found myself wondering where on earth I was going to stop the car on the packed motorway with no emergency lane if I was sick. I couldn’t go any further and had to turn the car around at Morges. I arrived home feeling so horrible I expected to barely have time to rush to the bathroom, but no: between the time I got out of the car and into my flat, it had started to subside, and was back to normal within a short hour. Clearly the virus I was dealing with did something really weird to my inner ear.
On the 17th I rested. My nose was runny and I was coughing, but I’d seen worse. On the 18th I felt well enough to go and help out with the garden at the chalet. Maybe not the best idea (no hint of motion sickness though). I gave in mid-afternoon, and the next day I was out of it and my cough was worse (no surprise). I put myself on codeine and worked from home on the 20th. The next day I felt on the mend enough for my normal work regime, though the cough lingered on, as it usually does.
Illness 2
By December 2nd I was feeling ready to pick up judo again the next week. Woke up on the 3rd with a sniffly nose, and by end afternoon I was knocked out and slept a good 2.5 hours until 7.30pm. Had a dreadful night, not feeling well and upset that I was falling ill again. Stayed at home in bed on the 4th (nose and couch and slight fever, “my usual”), and bravely (stupidly) decided that after this day of total rest I would be well enough to go to work the next day.
Bad idea. After 10 minutes on the train I knew I had made a mistake. The friend I sometimes travel with was there and told me (kindly) that I looked like crap. I headed back home early afternoon, as soon as “the meeting” I’d been going for was dealt with. I took the 6th off (couch and rest), and saw my doctor on the 7th as I was still not feeling fit for work (I still had some fever). She put me on leave until the 11th, included. It was needed, though I felt terribly guilty about missing work and being ill. Symptoms this time around were mainly cough, cough, cough, some fever, a stuffy nose and feeling generally weak and miserable. The usual cold for me.
On the 12th I was back to being “normally” functional again, but taking the lift instead of stairs, though. At least my brain was back.
Illness 3
The cough lingered on as it always does but within a week I felt in good enough shape that I was running up stairs again and looking forward to finally going back to judo and skiing during the winter break (though I skipped singing practice on the 13th).
On the 21st morning I woke up with a painful trachea and a nastier cough than the day before. That didn’t bode well. Thankfully I was working from home. In the afternoon I noted that the two flights of stairs between my office and my flat felt like an exhausting trek and that I was pretty out of breath. As I suspected, my temperature was rising. I saw my doctor the next day, who checked that nothing scary was afoot, and I went back to rest, hoping I’d be fit for our first family Christmas party on the 25th.
As I’m trying to determine objective indicators I can use to decide if I’m “fit for work” or not (after the fiasco of illness 2), I though I’d keep track of my temperature and associated symptoms.
I can therefore confirm that when I’m running 37.1 or even 37.0 I feel like crap: my body is painful, moving anywhere is a huge effort, to say nothing of walking up a flight of stairs. My brain is mush. I am, however, able to watch TV series and listen to podcasts. When it climbs up to 37.5 or a bit more, it gets worse. Concentrating on a TV show or a podcast feels like an effort, and I’ll find myself not wanting to or giving up. I can cook a simple meal, however. You know, fry some fish fingers in the pan, make some pasta and heat some frozen vegetables. At 38.5 or more, we enter the world of “just let me close my eyes and wait until it’s over”. No podcasts, no TV. I can still crawl out of bed and put a frozen pizza in the oven. But no more than that. Mainly, I will be lying down, awake or asleep, mind blank, waiting.
So, on the 21st, 37.1; 22nd, 37.5; I don’t know what happened during the night between the 22nd and 23rd, but I know I hit 38.7, woke up at one point so drenched in sweat that I had to change, woke up another time shivering, woke up another time feeling my symptoms were much diminished (pain, inflammation), and in the morning of the 23rd I was still above 38.5. At some point in the afternoon I got so fed up that I took something to bring the fever down. 38 already felt much better, and 37.5 was positively wonderful – in comparison. I hovered around 37 and 37.5 on the 24th, and yesterday (the 25th) I was “almost normal”: down to 36.3 at times, my “base temperature”, but then back up to 37 in the evening.
Back to now
Today, on the 26th, is the first day I really feel “ok” and my temperature is normal (so far). Of course, I’m still coughing my lungs out, exhausted, and my whole body is painful. Codeine is going to continue being my best friend for the next days. I won’t be going to family Christmas tomorrow, but with a bit of luck I’ll be able to attend the one we postponed until the 29th.
I hope you enjoy all these calendar and numerical details. As you can see, it’s what’s coming out of my brain right now.
For those of you who may be concerned: of course I’m taking medicine for all this. As we all know, with viruses all you can do is rest and treat the symptoms. And I have the nasty, efficient, deadly drugs you need for that. Codeine, cortisone inhalers, decongestants that you shouldn’t take for too long, painkillers when needed, antihistamines for the night, steam thingy with an essential oil mix, stuff you pour down your nose, you name it, I have it. Yes, the sad reality of life is that you can “do everything right” and still fall ill.
Well, I’m not exactly doing everything right. One thing I have trouble doing is resting enough and taking it easy when I need to. A topic for another blog post.
I’ll leave you with a selection of TV series I’ve been watching, as I’ve gone through the existing offering of Star Trek. Definitely watch Slow Horses and The Night Manager if you like spy stuff. Catch up with Good Omens for something funny (and wicked). As Doctor Who season 14 is starting, have you caught up with the three 2023 Christmas specials? If you’ve missed them so far, I also recommend making your way through The Mandalorian, Picard, Ms. Marvel (love the South-East Asian cultural context) and, last but not least, Loki (even if you’re not into the Marvel stuff). Currently watching: The Wheel of Time (medieval fantasy, friendship, adventure, a quest, magic, powerful women…). Away from fiction, if, like me, you’re wondering if you maybe missed something by not knowing much about Taylor Swift, watch Miss Americana. I might be a fan now.
Ah well, I thought I was seeing the end of it when I wrote this! I wasn’t. I had been expecting to be back up and running a few days later, but no: the cough remained bad, I was more exhausted than I can ever remember being in my life, and although my fever seemed to have done its job and moved on, I kept having on and off joint/body pain. Actually, my temperature didn’t completely come back to normal – and I’m not even sure it has, as of yet. I rested and tried some light activity – tidying a bit, going out for a stroll – but each time I did a bit “too much” (and honestly it wasn’t a lot) I would find myself lying on the couch as if I had come back from a week-long marathon.
On the 31st, I was still coughing badly and feeling very crappy, so I went to see the doctor (not mine, emergency clinic). My reasoning was: if I have a bacterial infection and need antibiotics, it’s not going away on its own, and with the new year break it would be silly to lose another week of work by not starting them now. Turns out lung x-ray and blood analysis showed no signs of bacterial infection or major inflammation: best hypothesis so far is post-viral fatigue. The doctor gave me another week off work, tweaked the meds for my cough, I rested and rested, overdid it by going on a 40-minute walk, rested more, saw my temperature climb back up to 37.6, rested more.
Two days ago I started feeling a little bit more like myself. Still tired, but not abnormally exhausted by seemingly mundane activities. I tried putting my brain to work, did a little more around the house and flat, went out for a few appointments and grocery shopping.
As of now, my cough is back to my usual post viral cough. The dry, tickling annoying thing that shows up regularly along the day, and more if I exert myself. But that is normal for me. The pain is still there at times but it definitely seems on the way out. I’m still sleeping more than usual but I feel functional. I’m going back to work tomorrow: wish me luck, if I make it through the day it clearly means I’m out of the woods. If I don’t, I’ll be heading back to my doctor this week. I’m a little concerned about going from “barely doing anything” these last days to “normal day of work at the office + commute”, but I figured it made more sense to rest well this week-end and hope for the best. I have Tuesday off as I’m working Friday this week, exceptionally.