My Journey Out of Procrastination: Perfectionism, Starting, and Stopping

[fr] Le perfectionnisme est un aspect bien connu mais souvent un peu méprisé de la procrastination. Y'a qu'à accepter qu'on n'est pas parfaits, que diable! Ce n'est pas aussi simple que ça, car en raisonnant ainsi, on ne tient pas compte des composantes émotionnelles parfois très profondes liées à nos exigeances internes de perfection.

Lorsqu'on souffre de procrastination, on se définit souvent comme une personne ne pouvant pas commencer les choses, alors qu'en réalité le problème est qu'on n'arrive pas à arrêter une fois qu'on a commencé, et qu'on se "perd" dans la tâche. Ne pas commencer est donc une réaction saine pour ne pas perdre contact avec soi-même. Il peut donc suffire d'apprendre à s'arrêter pour pouvoir commencer -- par exemple en fixant une limite de temps (avec minuterie!) lorsque l'on fait quelque chose.

In addition to the five principles I described in my earlier post, two more really important things to understand regarding procrastination are:

  • how perfectionism ties in with it
  • how having trouble starting and trouble stopping are two sides of the same problem.

So, perfectionism. I think the link between procrastination and perfectionism is perceived by most people, but it remains a superficial understanding. Like procrastination, perfectionism is not something you get rid of by just “accepting you’re not perfect” or “lowering your standards”. It’s not that simple.

Perfectionism is often rooted in deep-seated fears of the sky falling on your head if somebody says something negative about you or what you’ve done. Just willing away this emotional component will sadly not be enough to free oneself, in most cases. So, just like procrastination, one’s tendancy to go for perfection perfection perfection needs to be treated gently and with understanding. Where does it come from? Do I really believe that people can love me and appreciate what I do even if it’s (I’m) not perfect? (Don’t answer that question too quickly… The answer is often “no” if you’re really honest with yourself.) What small experiences can I do to show and teach myself that the sky will not fall on my head if I don’t do things perfectly?

It’s also important to understand that one of the things perfectionism does is make mountains out of molehills: if your standards for what you want to accomplish are very high, it’s discouraging. You think about decorating your flat to make it the perfectly decorated place of your dreams, and before you’ve even finished imagining it you’re already discouraged and don’t have any energy to even get started. This is where tricks like breaking up big projects (or aspirations) into smaller pieces can come in handy. (For example, I’ll accept that my flat isn’t decorated, and take the small step of putting up one picture on the wall, even though that won’t make it “perfectly decorated”.)

When I was a teenager, I understood rather quickly that my desire to do things “well” was getting in the way of my simply doing them. In a way, I’d say I’m a reformed perfectionist: I’ve long ago decided that I’d rather do things imperfectly than not do them (I have a “just do it even if it’s crap” mode). I also learned that what I considered “crap” was often considered by others to be “great” — like that time when I wrote a quick and dirty page on what I’d done at a job, mainly for myself, and sent it off to my brother who was working at the same company, who then (to my horror) forwarded it to the manager, manager who then (to my utmost disbelief) got back to me praising the professionalism of my crappy document.

In some cases, you might discover that perfectionism is not the real problem, but a “constructed” problem designed to achieve a goal like help you procrastinate. It might sound a bit crazy, but sometimes causality doesn’t really go in the direction we imagine.

Starting and stopping are a good example of this. Almost all people who procrastinate will at some point say something like “Oh, my problem is just starting — once I’ve started, then there’s no stopping me, I’ll do what I set out to do. I just really need to find a way to get started.” I said the exact same thing. Then one day I realised (I had a little help for that) that the real problem I faced was not that I couldn’t start things, but that once I was started, I just couldn’t stop.

I’m a little obsessive, and once I’m doing something, I get completely absorbed in it, don’t see time go by, forget to eat, forget to feel, forget to breathe (!), lose myself. It’s clearly one of the things that helped me develop RSI all those years ago, but that’s not the only problem. It’s that although I’m being productive, I’m “not there”, I’m out of touch with myself, and I’m not really enjoying it, except in a kind of manic, compulsive way. This is not flow, by the way — it’s something else and it’s not healthy.

So in a way, I have a very good reason not to want to start things. I have a very good reason for procrastinating — it’s my healthy reaction against behaviour that makes me lose myself.

The way out, therefore, is to learn to stop. If you know you can stop, then you are free to start. FlyLady understood this very well, and this is why the “you can do anything for 15 minutes” mantra works so well. Trust me, learning to stop is not easy. Once you’re finally doing something and getting into it, stopping after 30 minutes (or whatever time you’ve set) is going to feel very counterproductive. But remember where the real problem is here: if you don’t make the effort to stop, you’re cheating yourself (specially if you coaxed yourself into starting because there was a clear time limit to how much time you’d spend on the task) and it will make it even more difficult to start next time. I find the way FlyLady puts it in her “How to Declutter” page pretty inspiring:

Decide how often you are going to declutter a zone. Do a little every day – use a timer. But be warned – this can become compulsive! Once you get started you will want to clean like a banshee! Don’t burn yourself out! Only do small amount at a time. The house did not get dirty overnight and it will not get clean overnight. When you set the timer you can only do two sessions at a time. This goal may seem unattainable right now, but you can do it in little pieces. In a couple of months, the whole house will be decluttered.

So, concentrate on stopping things, rather than on starting them. Set time limits. Flip the problem on its head, and you should soon see things changing.

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9 Responses to My Journey Out of Procrastination: Perfectionism, Starting, and Stopping

  1. says:

    I’m speechless. This is exactly the kind of problems I have in daily life. Stopping is not as easy as it seems.

    Thanks Steph.

  2. You’re welcome — I have two more posts planned in my “journey” series, hope they’ll be useful to you too!

  3. Janet Bailey says:

    Interesting analysis of your own process, and of the phenomenon of procrastination generally. I’ve long felt that the advice “Just get started” is overly simplistic and works better for NON-procrastinators. I’ve been finding the timer helpful — my energy and mental clarity drop after about 20 minutes, so it makes sense to take breaks. But it’s hard to get used to working this way.

    Good point about “constructed” problems and how causality doesn’t always go in the direction we think.

    Looking forward to future posts in this series!

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  9. Nne says:

    this is EXACTLY what I’m going through every time I need to write something. Now I’m in the process of writing my senior thesis and it feels so awful. But I’m determined to make a change. I’ll go crazy if i don’t.

    Thanks for posting this and sorry for my English :)

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